The goal of the Mental Health Mom Series is for Moms and Moms-to-be to share their stories to be used to help inspire, uplift and spread awareness about mental health and motherhood.
Whether you suffer from depression, PPD, PTSD, anxiety, ADHD, bipolar disorder or something else your story may help change the life of another mom reader and that’s important to me!
A submission by Talin of Half Stay at Home Mome
Coping with Anxiety, Medication & Motherhood
I remember growing up, my childhood was relatively cool. We never needed or wanted anything. My parents provided us with everything we could ever want or need. I wouldn’t say I was a spoiled brat at all though. I was the shy little girl who would always hide behind my mom if we ever went around people.
There were some things that weren’t so great that I had to endure through. My mom was in an abusive marriage and being the youngest of 7 children, I was terrified all the time about what would happen to my mom or my siblings.
My mom did eventually leave my dad after 25 years. Her mental and emotional healing took several years. I do believe in forgiveness and I have a great relationship with my dad. He’s not the man he used to be that’s for sure, he has done a complete turnaround.
I would say that my childhood has been the main factor in my anxiety as an adult.
I never had any issues with anxiety or depression as a teenager but as an adult, I definitely started to have some issues. I used to tremble with anxiety in the middle of the night. My husband would try to comfort me but he didn’t really understand what I was going through because he has never dealt with it. I feel like the anxiety and depression go hand in hand for me.
After a year of being married, I got pregnant but ended up losing the baby when I was 18 weeks along. This experience completely triggered my anxiety, putting it into overdrive. I couldn’t sleep, eat, or do anything really. Nights were the worst time for me and anxiety.
I finally had enough and went to the doctor. He put me on Prozac and that helped me within a week to start feeling normal again. I knew I needed to be on a medication from then on.
About a year later though, I wanted to try for a child and didn’t want to be on any medications so I weaned myself off and I did ok for a while off of it. While I was pregnant with my daughter, I was constantly worrying that I was going to lose her too and I always had anxiety on and off.
After I had her, my anxiety didn’t get any better. I didn’t want anyone touching her because I was afraid of anyone getting her sick.
I know, so ridiculous but that’s the first mom for ya!
I tried taking a break for a few years from any anxiety or depression meds. Then, when I got pregnant with my third child, I was a basket case and couldn’t sleep, eat, or drink anything because my anxiety was so terrible.
I finally told my doctor and nurse about it and they put me on Zoloft because they said the only risk during pregnancy was that the baby won’t be as alert at birth. I got on Zoloft when I was 5 months along because I just couldn’t live like that anymore.
Related: Postnatal Depression
My baby was just perfect at birth and he wasn’t overly sleepy either. Getting on Zoloft was the best decision I could have made for me and my baby.
About a year ago, I was at my gyno appointment and told my doctor about maybe weaning myself off.
He basically told me, if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it.
He reassured me that if it is helping me then there is absolutely nothing wrong with being on them. Since speaking with my doctor, I have continued taking my Zoloft and it has helped me tremendously!
I am on the lowest dose and I have no plans on ever getting off of it because I know what it felt like when I did get off of it. My anxiety and depression always creep up at some point and I just can’t live like that.
Being on antidepressants or antianxiety meds doesn’t make you a weak person. I think it makes you stronger because you’re recognizing that you needed help and you got the help you needed.
I hope this has helped anyone out there who suffers from anxiety or depression.
Dealing with anxiety & motherhood can be hard, if you’re suffering from any of these things, please go and talk to your doctor.
About the Author: Talin is the owner of Half Stay At Home Mom. She is married to her best friend and is the mom of 3 little kids. Talin works as a Pediatric Registered nurse. In her free time, Talin loves to spend time with her kids and cook meals for her family. If you want to catch up with Talin, visit her at Half Stay at Home Mome, Instagram, Pinterest, Facebook & Twitter.